What do you do when the tears won’t stop flowing.
What do you do with scars so deep that they cut you to the very bone.
How do you go through each hour when time seems to have frozen still.
Your heart is shattered yet again into pieces flung far and wide.
You can’t sleep, can’t sit, can’t move and can’t stand.
Your soul has deserted your body, yet somehow you are still breathing.
The only thing you can feel through your body is excruciating pain.
Somehow the pain is your only consolation as it is the only thing keeping you alive.
Even breathing brings pain, speaking is pure torture.
Nothing makes sense, nothing feels real.
You move like a numb zombie, dead to the world.
The kind of pain that can only be felt in the silence of the darkest void.
The kind of pain that keeps coming in waves that wash over you.
Pain that becomes a part of you till you no longer remember who you were before it.
Pain so excruciating that it cuts through every fibre of your being.
Agony so deep that it scorches everything it touches.
At some point you just accept the pain, agony and tears as your new normal.
You accept that this is your reality now.
Triggered by the slightest memory, lyrics to a song, or just a random thought.
All you want is to escape the pain, just a moment of sunshine is all you need.
But alas. The sun has set and the moon just isn’t the same.
So tell me, where do we go from here?